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More and more I find myself alone. It's not that I don't mind at all. I've got my music, video games, and I even acquired Netflix recently. But still, it's a shame to be alone. My mother is usually out with her boyfriend, my boyfriend lives five hours away, and when I'm not working, my friends are and vice versa. Sure, I have a few number of friends I talk to online, but recently I've been striving for physical contact. I can't help human nature.

The only time I really go out of the house on my own is to go to work. I'd like to quit my job soon, but I want to make sure I have another job secured before I even think about putting in a three week notice. You know, unless you have worked in fast food before, you might not realize how much crap they deal with when it comes to customers.

Because of my mom spending the night at her boyfriend's place more often, I've been put in charge of taking care of our blind dog. I don't mind at all, but the thing is that our basement is blocked off from her (That's where the cat food is, and she tends to eat it), and that's where my bedroom is. I'm not comfortable sleeping in my mother's bed for odd reasons, so I sleep on the couch. It's like my bed now, which is kind of sad. It's almost as if every other night I get to sleep in my bed. Couch, bed, couch, bed. I hope this pattern ends once school starts again.

I feel like I should draw, but I'm lacking any motivation to get off the couch in the first place. My beat up sketchbook (beat up because of a mental breakdown I had yesterday) is in my room, and I don't want to get up.

I've practically done nothing all day except lie around and roleplay.


Date: 2013-01-13 05:36 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] calamaroooh
Sounds about right. All I've done the past four days is rp and lay around, pretending I don't have a list of things to draw.... I just, the motivation is gone. It happens. All artists go through it. It's not even art blok it's more like drawing block, like it hurts to pick up your pencil or something

I hope you find a better job soon! Places will be hiring soon enough since breaks over and people are going to be getting ready for school again, summer, moving around. Jobs seem to open up during the end and beginning of summer, at least where I am. Keep your options open!

As for the loneliness.. I wish I could help, but it's just, always gonna be there. It comes and goes though, when you're able to make more friends who aren't always busy or rather, you learn that being lonely can be fun c: I watched this video on youtube here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs It's kind of a nice perspective of how to enjoy being alone <3 hope you enjoy it!

Date: 2013-01-13 06:06 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] calamaroooh
Lying around really is nice though... I wish I could get paid for it, or it created more of a solution to my problems, rather than a cause. Go with it though! Getting a boost of inspiration might just be what you need to get out of a slump!

That's good at least-- keep applying, that's what I did... I should still be doing but now I've got so much I should be doing over a job I can't really. I envy you. I loved working, making my own money. Plus, it's just another excuse to get out of bed and not laze around like I do.

Mhmm! I always go to it when I feel I need a little pick me up on being alone. Makes you want to get cozy and just go walk around and find something interesting!


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